Self Love Making



Some of the times I’ve felt sexiest, most aroused, most in love have been, and continue to be on my yoga mat.
The practice of yoga turns you on- literally. By listening to the sound of your breath you turn up the volume on the inner voice-that of the heart and that of the body. When you move into and out of various shapes on the mat you turn on the muscles-the visceral fabric of your being. You amplify your ability to gauge your body as its own unique organism. When you move your body in unison with your breath a veritable erotic throw-down inside your own skin occurs-a yoga is made-a union, a connection.
If the act of having sex is intended to be fun, feel good, express emotion, procreate, make love then the yoga practice does all these things too! If it wasn’t fun and didn’t feel good you simply wouldn’t do it. Waves of emotion are bound to arise through the practice in some way or another. As you get to know yourself you procreate more of your most life affirming traits. And of course, this kind of practice is at the deepest core level an act of love.
For me, discovering the nuances of sensation and the actions of the muscles and bones is perpetually like making love with someone new-exciting, curious, sometimes awkward, but always satisfying. Other times I find stepping onto my mat, listening to the familiar sound of my breath, and allowing the practice to unfold itself through me to be the sweetest kind of love making. Like reuniting with your favorite partner, it’s somewhat predictable but yet so intoxicating you just cant help but be folded and unfolded in the wake of their presence.
To love yourself, to be turned on by your precious breath, to feel erotic by experiencing yourself as an embodied being-this is on of the great gifts of yoga. It is the open invitation to make love to yourself, which is of course the most intimate partner you, or I could ever have. 

Boulder Welcomes a Big Easy Kirtan

With such pleasure and delight I welcome my dear friends from New Orleans to Boulder, CO.....

Mon, July 12, 7:30pm 
Cost $15

An Evening Of Mystic Mantra Music With Sean Johnson & The Wild Lotus Band....
"Sean Johnson and The Wild Lotus Band’s music will ignite the world...a hybrid of East and West that will bring joy to your heart and get your body boogieing." - Yoga Chicago


Dive into the bliss of kirtan, the yoga of music, with celebrated New Orleans mantra musicians Sean Johnson and The Wild Lotus Band. This critically acclaimed band on Nettwerk/Nutone Records-- home of Sarah McLaughlin, Krishna Das, and Jai Uttal—creates evocative music that blends ancient eastern mantras with western musical taste, passionate vocals, funky grooves, and dreamy melodies. Their innovative approach to chant music transcends genres—shades of rock, jazz, funk, choral, Indian, Irish, Middle Eastern, and folk styles merge effortlessly with the magic of the mantras. Yoga Journal has praised the band: “A joy to listen to whether you’re a yogi, or anyone who appreciates wildly creative music.” The band includes Sean on vocals and harmonium; vocalist and percussionist Gwendolyn Colman; and Alvin Young on fretless bass and guitar. 

Visit and listen to Sean Johnson & The Wild Lotus Band www.SeanJohnsonAndTheWildLotusBand.com


Become a fan of Sean Johnson And The Wild Lotus Band on their Facebook page.
Watch interview with Sean on YogaMates: www.yogamates.com/tv/?v=48BF0DD9A5F1C
Read interview with Sean on YogaMates: www.yogamates.com/music/7/

SUMMER=MORE YOGA!

Below is the Summer Schedule for classes in downtown Boulder, CO!
please note that all classes 5/16-6/2 will be subbed so check the OMTIME website for teachers!

Tuesdays 7-8:30am int/adv
Thursdays 1:30-3:30pm int
Fridays 4:15-5:30pm all levels
Saturdays 8:30-10am all levels

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SPRING FLING WEEKEND WORKSHOP IN NEW ORLEANS!!!

A sweet, sultry two days of yoga in beloved New Orleans 
at Wild Lotus Yoga in Celebration of Mother's Day and the Goddess!


Friday May 7 
7:30-9:30 pm
Maha Mother Prage Fest
PRAGE:meaning to  pray and rage at the same time
MAHA: meaning  great, the most
            This friday evening will be a festival of sorts as we celebrate the approach of Mothers Day by honoring the Goddess. Through asana, dance, meditation, music, poetry, myth, and art we honor the mother that rebirths us anew each spring. This practice calls on the Goddess to help us till the soil of own being, nourish the seeds we choose to plant, and extend blessing for their abundant flowering. 
            Bring your great prayers, ecstatic rage, and deepest, love to this evening maha goddess festival.  


Saturday May 8
2:30-5:30 pm
Celebrating the Great Mother: 
The Godess as Saraswati, Lakshmi,
              In celebration of Mother's Day we delight in the great Mother-The Goddess! This class will be a deep embodied exploration of the goddess as she takes the form of Saraswati, Lakshmi, and Kali. 
              These manifestations of the Divine Feminine serve as reminders to us all of our own wisdom, abundance, and power that is the impulse behind all creative endeavor.  Through the practice of asana we will explore and embody these images and stories of the Goddess as gateways into our own creative process, and deepest inner knowing. Opening to this deeply creative force we can learn to make room for the Goddess in our bodies, our hearts, our lives.
              This class is appropriate for all levels of yoga practice and faith in the Divine Feminine- one must only come with an open heart, inquisitive mind, and ready body to be rocked by the great Maha Mother into full inspiration of her impulse!

for details and to register please contact Wild Lotus Yoga

OWN IT!

Dear women and men, self proclaimed yogins, and "I don't want any of that spiritual crap" alike, dear human beings attempting to be real in the world and really in the world,


Own It Sister! is a group of three women embracing their WILD FEMININE through the cultivation of their voices, their gifts, their abundance and their wealth and sharing it with you! Their weekly talk show brings on inspiring guests who are living examples of how to be authentic in the world and essentially, be paid for it. (pause for huge gasp!!!!)

Yours truly went on the show for the second time yesterday and was honored, inspired, humbled to be reminded I am OWNING IT! Wealth is dollars and cents but it is also an energy that when cultivated fosters all dreams to manifest into full abundance. And so, as is the nature of this blog to always turn the question back on you-to invite you into the yoga-the conversation of what auspicious moments exist continuously in your life-

What are the ways in which you would like to be wealthy and abundant? What seeds do you wish to plant and cultivate NOW in this season of spring? How can you OWN the gifts you already have so they can be offerings to the world?

www.ownitsister.com

To Give Or Not To Give



Recently I have been practicing naming what isn’t being said outright and in so doing clearing the air for productive conversation and a very real sense of being in the world…so let me just NAME this for you…
WHEN YOU DONATE MONEY TO A CAUSE FOR HAITI, DO YOU KNOW IF IT ACTUALLY GOES THERE?
Ok, pause for reaction…the pink elephant in the room has been noted…yes do what you need to do…cringe, yell...moving on...
     
      Firstly, the yoga is not meant to be easy and comfortable. In fact, it is supposed to give you a rub. It is meant to create a question that perpetuates more questions rather than finding one decisive answer. Secondly, this uncomfortable statement expresses outwardly a sentiment that I (and I am guessing many of you as well) am becoming more curious about. That sentiment being: If you do not know exactly where and how your money donated to a cause is used, is it worth it?
      There is no way to know for sure if the money given to any particular agency (particularly overseas) is actually going to help the people it claims to aid. I ask you does this matter? Does this make you not want to give at all? If the not knowing of whether your money is applied exactly the way it was “intended” is stopping you from donating altogether, then I might ask you to reconsider. When you give a dollar or two to the person on the street that asks, do you know what happens with those few dollars?
      I didn’t think so.
      So amidst the myriad of organizations offering to send your money to support relief in Haiti, some organizations asserting their innocence against accusations of using donations for personal gain, and the state of our current economy which is teetering at best, I purpose that NOW is a most auspicious time to give! Why? Well, in a time of desperate and disparate uncertainty, the way to a place of stability lies deeply embedded within our human goodness and decency.
      This is the place inside that wants to soften another’s pain, that longs to see and be seen, that is grateful for the privilege of not having to stand on the street and beg for bus fare. And it is the place inside that is grateful to be on the donating, rather than receiving end of the relief efforts. This is the source-the abundant wellspring-from which we give our money and service.
      Turn to your breath-to your heartbeat-and understand (in case you have forgotten) that this heartbeat and this breath is a phenomenon occurring in every human being. This same pulse is threading through every living organism, including the bedrock of the earth even when she floods, bleeds, and quakes. If you donate your money or service because you know your heartbeat is just as precious as that of another, than it no longer matters if your dollars go to a hungry mouth in Haiti, New Orleans, South Africa, downtown Baltimore, or the person asking on Pearl Street.
      Just like the yoga implores us to give up the fruits of our practice, we must also abdicate the knowledge of the final destination of our donation. Granted I do think it is wrong for any organization to use donations for personal gain and I would rather not perpetuate the drug or alcohol problem of the man I gave change to last week on the street. But the reality is, I do not know if those scenarios are true.
      Therefore, give without attachment of the final destination. When we remember the source of where and why we donated anything to anyone at anytime, we remember that the importance of another’s heartbeat is equal to our own. When we donate money or service from this clear source of intention and release the final destination of that offering, we practice remembering the source of the breath and heartbeat that pulses all living things alive including the earth herself.

Equinox of the Heart

Here in Boulder, CO the air and light have begun the annual shift into crisp nights, shorter days, and sparkling foliage. On September 22 we mark the fall equinox as the first day of this glorious season and we begin our decent into the blanket of winter. It is an extremely charged time of year with tremendous transformative power. The combination of the fall equinox, Navratri; the Hindu holiday celebrating the goddess,  and Rosh Hashanah; the Jewish New Year ushers in a timely pause in our year. In the pause we can look deeply at the year past -- at the seeds we planted long ago last year in the dead of winters frozen eve. We also celebrate the gifted bounty of nature and the manifestation of those previously planted intentions. For me this time of year holds a special significance as the day my heart was literally and metaphorically cracked open. Today is my Re-birth Day.
My actual birthday is in April. April 9th to be exact, so please mark your calendars. I also recommend noting that I am an Aries, and yes the stereotypes are true and it really doesn’t help matters that the rest of my chart is mostly fire and air so I caution you always in dealing with this ram Proceed at your own risk!!!
Three years ago today I was almost killed an automobile accident (pause for gasp and reaction...) the key word here is ALMOST. Phew, glad I missed that train for now. It was Friday the 21st of September, a full moon, the night of the fall equinox, and the first night of Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year. Driving home from a family dinner gathering to celebrate the holiday, the car went off the road and…
Well you know what, the details of the story and the injuries resulting from being the passenger of the vehicle are just that…a Story. Those details hold no meaning inherently on their own and after countless retellings of the event both out loud and in my head in some desperate attempt at trying to understand and make a meaning of sorts I have discovered that reliving the event itself this way is sort of, well, meaning-less. In actively living a life that I wish to be meaning-full I have decided that this day, the fall equinox day, is my Re-Birth Day.
Not only does it have a much sweeter ring than The-Day-I-Almost-Died, which quite frankly insinuates a “woe is me” attitude that in the end only produces more pain and suffering, but it also celebrates the real nectar I have acquiesced from the event that permeates and sweetens many aspects of my life…on the yoga mat, off the yoga mat, in the grocery store, in graduate school, in teaching, in interpersonal relations, and the list could go on. The truth of the matter is that this event cracked me wide open, both literally and metaphorically. The truth is that the event changed my life. The truth is that the “accident” was not so accidental. In fact, it has been the catalyst for the complete restructuring not only of my bones but for my inner world that has so rightfully chosen to participate in this outer world and to participate fully now imbued with grace.
As I mentioned earlier, I have in the past had difficulty with this super-charged time of year. I know the fall equinox is approaching as well as Rosh Hashanah and instead of being joyful for the start of my favorite season (every season is my favorite season) I become contracted physically and mentally. As I begin to recount the event in my head and the “unfairness” about being the passenger injured in such a stupid misjudgment, my body remembers the physical pain and I end up feeling almost immobilized by the visceral memory of these bodily injuries.
Nothing in the universe is fair or moral. In fact, there is no inherent morality within the universe at all. (Pause again for reaction of eyes widening and fists preparing for tantrum like screaming) Now don’t run from the computer screen screaming or punch anything. This idea, which I learned from my beloved philosophy teacher, is such a good concept. Believing in the absence of inherent morality clears the way for an experience of freedom! We are free to make our own morality, to make our own meaning. The universe is the manifestation of pure creative energy or Shakti. Since this energy is completely unbounded and free…stuff happens. If “stuff” stopped happening, if the universe stopped acting out its creative potential through the manifestation of this thing we call our world, life as we know it, the world as we know it, would stop. The only way that the world exists is through the unbounded creative potential continually and repeatedly manifesting itself into being. This is the play of consciousness, the dance of Siva and Shakti that perhaps you have heard your local friendly anusarain (I think I just made up that word) speaking.
To throw another log on this mental bonfire (in true Aries fashion no doubt) let me also simply state why the universe bothers to create itself in the first place. I mean really, all this energy could just stay still and not create anything at all right? Well my friends, my dearest loves and fellow upa devas, the creative energy perpetuates itself through this process of continual manifestation for YOU! To quote Douglas Brooks “You are the point the universe is trying to make.” The only meaning within the universe itself is the meaning you choose to bring. It is through living your life, making your actions, thinking your thoughts and manifesting your power of the creative energy you hold that meaning to this world is given.
Simply put, you are the meaning. You are a microcosm of the macrocosm in this way. The same pulsation of creative potential and impetus held in the grand universal framework, is also contained within you. The gift of being a soul dressed in body clothes is that you have inherent forms to express your power. You have a thinking and feeling brain which allows you to produce a myriad of ideas all in some way a smaller, more limited and directed form of pure consciousness of Siva. Your arms and legs, hands and feet allow you to make action in the world to literally construct and tease out in form this power. Your tongue has the power to uplift or destroy with a single word or phrase -- to make love or hate. Never underestimate the shakti in your words lovelies. You have a heart and also a gut instinct that allows you to experience the full spectrum of emotions and you have the freedom to name those emotions as you see fit. (man, this being dressed up as a human being is a lot of work!) So if you want your life to be meaning-full, make it so.
My hope is that you are beginning to see that we do not need to be unnecessary victims to the infinite power of the universe by reveling in the pain of being smashed in a car, hating the world because we get sick or injured, or enraged because we experience unnecessary racism. We are imbued with our own human dose of universal power and creative force, which we can use to make life-affirming meaning in our lives. It is up to us to make the celebrations and acknowledgments we seek. It is our responsibility to fill the world with love. It is in our power to eliminate pain and suffering.
The fall equinox marks literally when the sun and moon stand over the equator in balance -- a pause -- that after which we begin to experience (in this hemisphere anyway) the season of fall. When events happen in our lives such as the case in my car crash experience, they provide us with a moment of pause. they usher in a change of seasons in our heart and in our visceral being. Essentially these events are the equinox of the heart of our human being. They bring about a momentary balance between our own infinite creative power to react and the universe’s infinite ability to act. These events are the internal equinox at the equator of our human form, the place where earth meets sky, our heart.
The meaning we often seek can more readily be found within these moments of pause and places of balance. This is a most auspicious day for both the inner and outer worlds. Today I invite you to take pause. What parts of you are in full harvest and can be celebrated? What parts of you are ready to be composted into the rich soil of the earth? Can you find a place of internal pause right at your equator and just for a moment feel your potential and creativity standing in harmonious balance with the shakti that breathes this world anew each day? Lovely ones, Happy Fall Equinox!!!

Upadeva To Upadeva: Or Lets Get To Know Each Other...


In the coming weeks I will be subbing a variety of classes here in Boulder as the start to what I hope to be a lovely unfolding of teaching yoga (my most beloved joy and highest delight) in this new chapter of my adventure! Please see below for the schedule and be sure to check back as I will update regularly as more opportunities arise.

Thursday 9/17 @ OmTime Boulder
1:30-3:30pm int/adv

Thursday 10/1 @ OmTime Boulder
4-5:15pm all levels

Friday 10/2 @ OmTime Boulder
4-5:15pm all levels

Thursday 10/8 @ OmTime Boulder
4-5:15pm all levels


Spiritual Storm Chasing

There is a great saying by Rob Brezny the author of Pronoia; "The universe is conspiring to shower you with blessings". Now, I hate to be the one to tell you this kids, perhaps bursting your pessimistic bubble of angst and worry and general distrust for the powers that unite us all, but Brezny's statement is true. The universe is conspiring to shower you with blessings. I’m sure many of you have experienced periods of time when life flows with ease, serendipitous events occur frequently, and a general feeling of being "connected" is present. In those times it is easy to say "Yes, I am blessed. Yes, I am lucky." But what of the times when there is less ease, less comfort, less apparent serendipity? Does that make us any less blessed? Does that mean we are less cared for by the "powers that be" than other times? Brezny’s statement acknowledges the obvious -- the times when we feel the showers of the universe’s blessings tickling our hearts. He also nudges us to understand that even when the hard rain falls, that too is a shower of blessings.

To put the most yogic spin on this, if the universe is perpetualy preparing to rain blessings upon us, our job then is to look out for the signs of the impending storm (i.e. clouds, thunder, and lightning) so that we can co-participate and take full advantage of the nourishing, life-affirming, and blessing-filled lessons these creative storms offer. We do not have to be innocent bystanders. Rather we need to be storm chasers. We need to actively hunt the blessings inside these storms, allowing us to co-participate in this conspiracy theory.

In the times of ease and simplicity we laugh, rejoice, and give thanks, like when its sunny during a rain shower and we see a rainbow. In the times when we feel more contracted and cloaked, we must investigate the darkness with the light of inquisitivity and faith, essentially going into the eye of the storm by traveling through the intense darkness to experience the deepest quiet and luminous stillness.

Below is one example of how the universe conspired to shower me with blessings. Of course it took me a while to catch on to this plot (wink, wink) but once I did, the experience of the blessings from this particular storm healed one of the deepest wounds of my soul.

For much of my life, I had more than a love of exercise. I was addicted to running, biking, going to the gym, and even my yoga practice. Though the gross behaviors of my anorexia and bulimia had dissipated, I remained fixated on my diet and exercise.

Right before graduating college, I began experiencing severe and depilitating back pain. I couldn’t run, I couldn’t do yoga. I couldn’t lift weights. The only thing I could do was lay flat on my back. The more pain I experienced, the angrier and more frustrated I became with myself and my situation. After almost two months I visited a chiropractor (because yall know how much I love traditional doctors) at the advice of a dear friend and furtunatley found some quik relief that allowed me to return to my daily regime of vigorous physical exercise. Despite the chirporacters encouragment to slow down and rest allowing myslef to break a cycle of exercise clearly harmful to my health, I continued my overly athletic lifestyle.

In 20/20 hindsite it seems so obvious that I had clearly been given the chance to break my exercise addiction and release myself from obsessive behaviors. At the time though, I was so enclosed within the the pigeon-hole existence I had created that I disregarded this potential transformation.

A few months later I was in a severe car accident leaving me with multiple broken bones throughout my upper body. Under the guidance of my chiropracter and some other alternative therapies, I learned that healing is never linear. It is instead more like a spiral. We often return to events that appear similar to those in the past, but as healing progresses and one ascends towards greater wellbeing, the themes may seem recurring but the lessons gleaned on each wrung are new. During this time, I tapped a deep wellspring overflowing with a sense of gratitude for life that began softening the refracted perceptions of myself. Even with this broader perception though, I remained trapped inside the obsession of perfection and once more regressed into old habits.

Two years later worsening back pain reminiscent of that which I had experienced before resurfaced. The medical treatment I sought (yes there are times one should see a medical doctor!) discovered two stress fractures in my spine. One of these was new while the other had allready healed, thus explaining the pain I had previously. Reminded of my chiropracter‘s lesson of the spiral like nature of the healing process, I vowed to approach this injury as an opportunity for transformation. Instead of focusing on my physical limitations, I sought out the lessons involving reccurring injury. I knew that if I did not ultimately change my obsessive exercise habits, I would continue to injur myself. I stopped exercising and gave my body time to rest. I spent time with family and friends. I allowed others to help me. I embraced the opportunity to deepen my meditation practice. I made room for sorrow as I accepted my physical limitations. I cried. I accepted that I may never have a perfect body. Instead of anger, and disregard, I approached my healing with a deep desire to not only heal my bones but to heal my heart.

When you believe the universe is conspiring to shower you with blessings it does not irradicate the possibility of physical and emotional pain and suffering and it doesn’t prevent times of sorrow and saddness. In fact, not only does such a saying leave room for all kinds of experiences (even the uncomfortable ones), it upholds the possibility that within those darkest moments of our lives (that is the conspiracy to which Brezny refers) is where we find the sweetest nectar -- the blessings. To this end I pose several questions lovely ones...

Can you see how the universe is conspiring to shower you (yes YOU) with blessings? Next time its raining and you want to grab that umbrella to shield your preciously delicate heart and psyche, can you instead go out and stand in the rain? Can you let the blessings of the universe rain on you? Are you willing to be a spiritual storm chaser?

What Has Yoga Done For You Lately?

Yoga practice is not just about asana kids. In fact, the majority of yoga is not asana. Here in the west though when we think "yoga" we think "asana" (the poses). Yes, they are fantastic party tricks and have numerous physical benefits (including those toned arms and that coveted yoga butt!) but if you want to get the most out of the practice its time you started asking: What has my yoga done for me lately?

The life-loving poet Mary Oliver writes: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” I always attempt to live boldly, never settle, and uphold my passions with fervent conviction. When I feel lost, confused, or lacking in faith, I return to these words for inspiration to direct the sails of my “precious life”. These words encourage me to live “wildly” with the wind of the divine spirit running through my hair and the reflection of oceans of courage in my eyes. To live the life Oliver inspires has required the development of unwavering strength and courage, and keen sensitivity….all attributes cultivated by the practice of yoga.

For me asana is more than placing my body into specific shapes, but is the free, artistic, and ecstatic expression of my intention to be a source of light. This exercise of mindful movement connects me to a divine source of inspiration inside. Like any artist who illustrates their inspiration onto a canvas with paints and brushes, I paint my emotions, experiences, and ideas onto the canvas of my mat through the medium of my body.

Years of study and practice have taught me that asana is not only a language of the body, mind, and spirit but also an effective method for healing physical, emotional, and psychological wounds. I, like so many others, am a living testament to the powers of yoga. Among them, healing physical injuries I was told by doctors would never mend, and moving beyond psychological barriers I was encouraged to medicate.

My belief as a yogin, a teacher, a scholar, and artist is in taking the time and events life offers and transforming them into radical awakenings for the spirit. In the same soul searching vein as Oliver, Jack Kornfield reminds us that, "To undertake a genuine spiritual path is not to avoid difficulties but to learn the art of making mistakes wakefully, to bring to them the transformative power of our heart.”

So I ask you…how is your practice on the mat serving and empowering your practice at being a fully embodied human being? In what ways are you a source of light for others? What does asana practice mean to you? What do you need to do to live wild and free within a sea of responsibility? Your asana practice on the mat demands a lot out of you physcially, energetically, and probably emotionally. Don’t you think its time you started demanding the practice serve you in your daily life? You can start by asking some of these questions and see what comes up. You might be surprised at just how special you and your precious little life actually are!

The Well of Abundance: Donation Yoga Works

If you haven't yet noticed, more and more yoga classes these days are dropping the standard twelve to seventeen dollar drop-in fee in favor of a "suggested donation". Baltimore alone has three studios that run solely on donations from its costumers, and across the board studios offer many donation classes and special events in addition to their regular classes. This dear ones, in my humble, but loud opinion is incredible! Looks like Charm City is getting a whole lot more charming for its yogis hon!  

    As many of you know, all but three of my regularly scheduled classes and all of my workshops are pay by donation. I had several reasons for making this switch, including: 1) wanting to support my current students in attending class as much as possible, given a strained economy, 2) a desire to attract new students, especially those closer to my own age, 3) an intention to cultivate a responsible and heart oriented yoga community based on a precedent of abundance and not lack, and 4) to make a sincere offering of my time, energy and heart not enmeshed within the monetary aspect of teaching yoga.

Lets face it folks, the economy right now is well, bad! Even I know that the positive attitude produced within a quality yoga class won't shade us from that truth. What a good class can do, however, is support us in seeing things as they are and foster the strength and agility to creatively respond with integrity. A good class inspires us to live boldly in the face of challenge. Of course there will be fear, doubt and struggle, and sometimes it is precisely those shadowy thoughts that propel us forward, enhancing the quality of our lives and relationships. Yoga is not the magic "get out of jail free" card. It is when used appropriately, however, an instruction manual on how to get our selves out of situations and relationships that imprison our lives and hearts.

In the months prior to switching to donation-based classes, I noticed that while I was retaining a strong core student group, they were no longer attending class with the same frequency. I was also not attracting many new students in any of my classes. I felt a real sense of lack in all resources including but not limited to emotional and physical health, finances, and patience. The harder I worked to counterweigh these developing deficits (especially the financial ones), the more unfulfilled I felt. It wasn’t just that students were conserving their monetary and energetic resources, but I had unknowingly developed an outlook based on a premise of not having enough. I wondered if perhaps the whole idea of having a set fee for classes was in some way co-participating in the creation of both a conscious and subconscious “lack-centered” outlook.

Maybe I am being a bit pessimistically presumptuous here but it seems that there are many people walking in the door to pay for a yoga class these days who feel they are making a monetary sacrifice. The money they just paid for their walk-in or their new class pass “should” have gone into the bank or towards something else seemingly more important than a luxury such as yoga class. Lets be real, when the finances are tight, do you want to pay fifteen dollars to try out a yoga class to which you’ve never been? You could hate it after all, and then you’re out your time, your money, and had a mediocre experience in the process. The last thing one needs to create while stepping onto the mat is an intention conscious or otherwise that they “probably should have” saved their money.

Now, though some do consider something like yoga a luxury in their budget (and rightfully so!), I actually do not. I know, real shocker right? The yoga teacher thinks yoga is a necessity…Duh! Really though, participating in whatever activity brings you joy during your day is absolutely essential. I don’t care if you come to my class, go for a walk, play your guitar, talk to a friend, meditate, or go to the gym. Whatever activity you do mindfully that brings you joy and reveals insights into your own heart (even for a fraction of a moment) is, in my opinion non-negotiable, and should therefore not be sacrificed because of cost.

Your yoga is important to you. Your yoga is important to me. If the cost is outside your means, you can’t come. It is really that simple. We have already seen, on a very large and public scale the kind of damage caused by continually living outside our means. Yoga is intended to not only teach us how to skillfully live within our own means, but in fact, how to stretch the seam of the very life-fabric those means create.

We do this with our bodies, as we learn to stay safely within the bounds of our physical ability without getting stuck inside limitations. We do this with our hearts as we learn responsibility for our feelings and to protect the precious gifts we have inside without closing ourselves off to others and the world of experience. Shouldn’t the same standard of responsibility hold for attending yoga class? It is my sincere intention to cultivate a sense of pragmatic responsibility for one’s yoga practice by offering classes where someone chooses the amount they pay. I want people to feel that their yoga is well within their financial reach and not exacerbating the habit of luxury indulgence.

If like attracts like then feelings of lack will only breed more lack. Beauty will seek its reflection to create more beauty. Abundance will only overflow into more fullness. 

It was I Livia, who had to feel full, complete, and not financially starving if I was to attract more students and expect them to pay me for that service. After I botched my fifteen-dollar drop in rate, I started holding classes with a suggested donation of twelve dollars. Instead of having people sign in on a sheet and collect money from them, I placed a clay bowl and small sign at the doorway that said “suggested donation $12”. What happened astounded me!

As I predicted, this expanding force of plenty has attracted other souls looking to do yoga that revels the resources already available. New students find our yoga community every week, and usually because they have searched affordable and/or donation-based yoga in Baltimore. Other times their friend has mentioned that I am one of the teachers offering such classes in the area. The people that these classes attract are some of the most eclectically curious, genuine, and lovely souls I have encountered. I should also mention their generosity of not just spirit, but of wallet is nearly stupefying.

Student’s donations range anywhere from five dollars to twenty-five dollars, and since making this shift people come more times per week to class. Someone who was attending once now comes twice. Someone attending three times now shows up five times a week. Moreover people are requesting privates on top of the regular classes they attend.

It seems like students feel like yoga class is not only within their current means, but that whatever they bring as an offering -- five or twenty-five dollars, tight hips, or sore shoulders -- is good enough on that day. Subsequently I feel, especially on an energetic level, that we are now moving away from lack-centered attendance and more from a place of abundance. I feel full. I feel grateful. I feel abundantly generous. Coming together in class is now the celebration of that which is already full, and not the assembly of all the king’s horses and all the king’s men in hopes to put humpty-dumpty back together again.

As I predicted, a shift in my own attitude at the core level as exhibited by the act of offering donation-based yoga classes has spurred more abundance in every facet of the yoga community. People come more often, they give generously, and new people keep coming. Lovelies, we have tapped into a well that is rich with resources of creativity, beauty, desire, knowledge, health, vitality, and wealth. It is not arbitrary or lucky that donation-based yoga works both for the student and the teacher. It works because it is auspicious. It works because it makes a yoga -- a union with the well of abundance within all of us at the deepest level. And when we move from that place, in the words of my teacher, “good stuff happens!”

The Following Places offer donation-based yoga classes and related events in Baltimore

Baltimore Yoga Village

Yoga on Wheels ($5 dollar classes)

Parkside Power Yoga

Lifeline Power Yoga

Charm City Yoga

All Good Things Come To A Beginning..Livia Shapiro Yoga Moves To Boulder, CO

One of the many teachings held within the yoga conversation is not getting stuck in patterns that fail to serve our highest good. It is a real art to know when to stay and hold an asana and when to come out and move on in the practice. If we stay when we shouldn't we get injured, and if we come out too soon we miss the awakening.  This visceral process on the mat teaches us to discern what thoughts, behaviors, and relationships serve our highest interest and what don’t. When I say “highest purpose” I mean experiencing that ananda -- that bliss that pulsates inside us with such magnetic luminosity that it shines outward through our unique artful act of living. Any experience, relationship, thought, and yes, substance can be used for this kind of spiritual awakening.

I don’t believe in the saying “All good things must come to an end”. In my opinion all good things must come to a beginning. In fact if something is truly auspicious, it leads us toward greater insight about ourselves, and the world we inhabit. It illuminates the divine presence within ourselves and leads us down paths of continued growth and opportunity.

Our job is to listen. We listen to discern if the next opening will come from staying where we are, with the partner we have, the job we hold, the foods we consume, or if the awakening will come from a change, a move, a new beginning. When we not only hear, but also truly listen, the answers we seek become amplified so that denying them is essentially rejecting the deepest essence of the spirit housed inside the heart.

Perhaps I am the eternal spiritual optimist exploiting her own soulful naiveté here. I fully recognize that life is rarely as simple as I just laid out. We all have “promises to keep and miles to go before we sleep”. Life circumstances make it hard to follow through on what we hear from spirit (hence we can’t readily listen). Sometimes in the effort to seek our own truth and soul connection, we take a wrong turn and hurt others by acting selfishly or exploiting their sensitivities. 

This is why it is called practice. Just like you, I am practicing becoming a virtuoso at my Self instrument. I am learning to play as creatively and gracefully as possible. As we get more adept at playing our own Self instruments, the foibles become fewer and farther between and the noise less cacophonous. My dearest Kula, I have heard and listened….

In August me and this humble yoga endeavor of teaching, writing, playlisting, blogging, and hopefully soon podcasting, will move to Boulder Colorado to pursue graduate work in Somatic Psychology at Naropa University.

Sunday June 14th will be the last regularly scheduled class. That Sunday’s class will be an awesome “Expand Your Practice” int/adv inversions class. I will hold a very limited number of classes and workshops in July at 404 Marlow Rd. all by donation so please check back here for the schedule of those classes! Summer, when the weather is warm and energy high, is a great time to go deep into the body in a whole different way than at other times during the year. I invite you all to share your yoga practice not just with me but each other in the coming weeks!

Living and teaching here in Baltimore, my hometown (I did go to RPCS afterall!) has been very auspicious for me personally and professionally. It is with a heart overflowing in gratitude, love, and purnatva that I move forward to open the doors manifested by my auspicious time here and with this kula.  For all of us, this is a beginning -- a new chapter --an exciting time that has within it infinite potential for the deepest awakenings of grace.

Musicology

Music
: the science or art of ordering tones or sounds in succession, in combination, and in temporal relationships to produce a composition having unity and continuity : vocal, instrumental, or mechanical sounds having rhythm, melody, or harmony : an agreeable sound
Disk Jockey
: an announcer of a radio show of popular recorded music ; also : one who plays recorded music for dancing at a nightclub or party
Evocative
: evoking or tending to evoke an especially emotional response

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Integrative Nutrition with Lucas Seipp-Williams


We all know that going to a yoga class is one of the best things we can do for ourselves mentally, physically, and spiritually. Especially when we select and attend a class that nourishes us on all levels, we leave feeling better than when we walked in the door. I ask you, do you select the foods you eat with the same care and dedication with which you select your yoga classes? Spring is a great time of year to take inventory of your diet and make shifts based on what you discover. 
Yoga is the great conversation starter. The process of engagement asks us to go deep inside and ask ourselves if we are serving the highest good. Are we continually fulfilling our highest potential? If we are not doing so, then why? What shifts can we make to help us stand in a more harmonious and optimal place for our highest good? Ask yourself if your diet is serving you physically, mentally, emotionally?
 If you are interested in engaging and continuing such a conversation, check out Lucas Seipp-Williams. A holistic health counselor, Luke is a phenomenal resource and deep well of knowledge for the Baltimore community. Check out his website for great cooking ideas, articles on healthy eating, and to set up an appointment.